Damn you sun and all of his brightness!!

Today my windows shines I dont know what for, I feel so stupid when I say this but I really hate when everything gets shinning, is to fake for me, for me that im a person that loves to hide in the shadows that wishes that no one can found me and yet have the hope that a light hits me and wake me up is a wear thought but that me is so bittersweet for me... the sun always gives me that feeling of bittersweetness ... I know wich is my problem I re-think everything over and over is like a God damn gift and at the same time a freaking curse!! I cannot know why I do that but I hate it, hate it, damn I guess I feel to lonely lately, dont get me wrong I adore to be alone lonelyness should be my second name Im better alone but maybe I just need a warm feeling you know a memory to recall when im alone ...

Song

Audioslave: shadow of the sun ...and I cant tell u why Im the shadow of the sun

Fog

I love the weather just the way it is because I hate sun I hate the warm feeling that gives me I even feel dizzy when it is that sparkly, is just that I cannot be that alive, Im like an hermit that hate when people ask for him, what do you need me for? Im not that important, just live and let me live alone beacuse alone is the only way I can be myselft...

song:

cristina perry- jar of hearts.............you lost the love I love the most, and I learn to live half a live..

sad again with a grey sky...

Have you ever feel something is missing from your life? Is there someone that feel´s empty in a room full of people..well that often passes to me, why? I do not know the answer but I constantly feel that im not normal and maybe my other half would know the answer but... I just cannot found him...

Song:

one republic angel of mercy why haven´t you found me?